I stopped talking about my problems and praying about them instead

Usually when we have an issue we pickup our phones to vent, rant or simply talk about it with someone we trust. Sometimes we talk so much about that problem we become so consumed with getting back at that person who caused us anguish and pain that we forget one very important detail; most of the time that person we confide in isn't able to help us, but still we find great comfort in making them our rock in times of need.

It's pretty comfy until they may get tired of us. I mean. Many times we talk about the same problem over and over and over again that it becomes so repetitious that our listening ear knows just what we are coming with next. It could be that we come to them to talk about our nagging boss, lying boyfriend, or just a mean friend. Give and take we talk about that one thing at least 10 times a month and I mean, ten times in one month about the same thing, especially a thing that we have the power to change in many cases is a lot of times. Worst yet, what about when you share your inner most deepest issues with a friend and they break your trust by telling someone else?

I have be thrown into the guilty parentheses of always having a problem. Always running to others to complain or worse yet, confronting that individual who I may assume is the problem. I realized that all it just does is make you look like the one with a problem and no solutions. A dead weight. Gloomy and dull with their burdens laying wait.

I have come to find comfort in something better than a friend or listening ear here on earth. I have come to know that there is a Saviour who knows all our burdens, but He just wants us to forget about everything else and come to Him for he has the gift of everlasting peace. So when a friend may become tired of listening or that problem that seemed to have presented itself occurs, you have been given the chance to go on bent knees to the God of Heaven and Earth who takes no sides, spreads no rumors, never gets tired of listening, but who only comforts.

I have learned to pray about my problems, instead of talking about them and this assurance has been giving me ultimate peace. Now I am no longer a burden to a listening ear, but a refuge for those who are dear.

He Loves Me, He Loves Me Not! How to tell if he's really inlove...

When I was a little girl I would come home and pick hibiscus flowers from the tree at the side of my yard whenever I wanted to know if a boy I had a crush on, loved me or no. Boy, was I silly. Haha. Silly or no every female who has fallen head over heels for someone and ultimately wants the question answered of whether or not this guy she's obsessing over really at least likes her.

Over the years I have come across many signs, some clear as day and others very subtle, to tell or at least have an idea if a man is really that into you. Do not be mistaken. Not all fellas behave the same, but their actions and responses to requests given by a female they just have fallen for is pretty obvious and can determine if 'He Loves Me'.

Men react and treat very differently a female they may have fallen for. In most cases things he does and ways he reacts are almost always very different to others. Miraculously always available, returns calls and answers silly or redundant questions posed by this wonder of a woman he has fallen for. He even goes through the excruciatingly longs moments of having to wait on her when she does what a woman does best. Make a man wait. At any moment's notice he is readily available to accompany her to places he wouldn't get caught dead at. You get the idea.

Love in its entirety can be somewhat confusing, but I have found that when it is genuine you'll know. Although at moments you may have doubts about the place you have posed in this man's heart at the end of the day you always know that his heart belongs to you, because when you need him he's always there, through the good or / and the bad times.

That's the difference. He's there when the days aren't as bright to hold your hand in order to make it alright. True love doesn't hide and has absolutely no need to be searched for, because it is right there just where you need it when it resonates in him to be. There and that's all that matters.

Now the question no longer is a mystery, because you will know in the end, He Loves Me Now...

The relativity of being nice...

As always I was talking to someone and they were telling me about an issue they have been having with another person. Apparently this person isn't exactly nice when they have simple issues that can be resolved if they'd only understand and trust the situation. The person to whom I spoke ended by saying that this person who can be not so nice in many instances is actually nice. So, ahmmm. I'm trying to understand something here. Someone freaks out on you by treating in any manner, you haven't done anything wrong, they lash out at you when it pleases them and that person is nice?

When the conversation ended it made me wonder, what IS nice? I like to look up the definition of words when persons use them and it doesn't seem to fit into the context of what their situation is. So according to Google the word 'nice' means: giving pleasure or satisfaction; pleasant or attractive. Synonyms:enjoyable, pleasant, pleasurable, agreeable, delightful, satisfying, gratifying, acceptable, to one's liking, entertaining, amusing, diverting, marvellous, good. 

Ok. So now that we have defined what nice is, I would like to believe that this person isn't nice. At least when they need to be they are not. So let's work with one of the synonyms. Let us use 'agreeable'. Nice people usually agrees to everything. Don't get me wrong. I am not saying that I should agree to jump off a cliff if you asked me to, BUT, I wouldn't jump off a cliff because in the end it isn't nice for me to do if I am a nice person. I hope you're not loosing me here. In other words, genuinely nice people do things that are nice. So if I am a nice person and you ask me to jump off a cliff I won't because it isn't something a nice person would. I guess that is why they refer to suicide victims and persons with the tendency to commit suicide as 'selfish'.

I always say that nice is relative, because we don't truly know people until we know them. Come see me and come live with me are two entirely different things.

So the next time you want to wonder if someone is nice, just look into their actions, the way they treat everyone in general. If that person treats everyone they don't live with nice and treat you not so nice, then that person really, isn't, nice are they?

Food for thought.

Blood moons, love and faith!

Today is the 27th day in September and it was announced that the blood moon or some eclipse or some sort would appear. Jaded as I always usually am everyone continues to speak about this phenomenon and then it strikes that shortly after the Pope visits the US, a super blood moon appears. I guess after all this talk of bible prophecy is being fulfilled.

The truth is I am trying not to feel bitter sweet. I mean after all I do want the Lord to come and take the faithful home as promised, but I still haven't had a chance at it yet. Selfish I be it. Typical sinful human being. Wants to experience love after it clearly states we won't remarry in Heaven. Don't look at me that way. The bible says it. Loud and clear. No remarrying, dating or all that jabbing in Heaven. Hahaha. I mean it is only fair. How do you think a man will do well with wives he has divorced and watched died and then watch life for eternity in Heaven. Sharing. I think not. Haha. haha.

Still though. This is still about blood moons, love and faith. Still in the pursuit of. What to gather. Will I ever as I haven't even really never, loved for the ever. Sigh! Sigh! Sigh! Then I guess I should be focused entirely on winning souls for the faith or should I really have faith in winning a love for my soul. Little selfish winch. Blood moons, love and faith.

Facebook Ads' SECRET CHARGES!

On August 17, 2015 Facebook deducted $851.51 JMD an equivalent to $7.19 USD. Not knowing what the charge was for I thought it was a minor deduction from the total amount that my account is in arrears of, which would be a total of $48.05 USD. I visited my Ads Manager and noted that the amount that my account is in arrears of has not changed, therefore I still have to pay Facebook $48.05 USD and in addition to that they took $7.19 USD. That total of $55.24 USD. A blatant overcharge.

Worried about what had happened I knew I should be refunded or better yet just pay $7.19 USD less of $55.24 USD, but Facebook is the worst company to contact as they have no means direct contact knowing to me. I am aware of online forums and help centres (so called, help) that persons can join to submit queries.

I found a forum of several persons (I am sure they are much more) who are in the same dilemma as myself. Now I can imagine the fortune that Facebook has made from charging (taking) cash from person's accounts maliciously. This crime is the same as taking a dollar from 1 million accounts, amounts that persons wouldn't notice or even if they noticed, they wouldn't even care to query it, because it is just a dollar.

Unfortunately. I am very concerned about this cash that was taken from others and my account for absolutely no reason. How much money is Facebook really gaining from these Secret Charges.

One thing's for sure. I can see where not having a customer call centre suits them just fine. Where are 'Suits' when you need em?

Taking life too seriously will make you cry!

My friends always tell me that I am too nice. Of recent. Too friendly.

Sometimes I'd go out with my mom and she'd say hello to as much people as she can. Maybe that's where I get it from.

But can someone really be too nice? We really can't read the minds of others. We don't say hi, we hear we have no manners. We say hi, at times it is as cold as ever. So what do we really do?

This is what I figured; be yourself, although that is a bit of a dangerous statement. Not all persons who are themselves are quite... friendly, but as Christians. Let me be specific, as Christians the Lord says, "you are the light of the world." Matthew 5:14

It horrifies me when Christians are unpleasant and not attentive towards the needs of their fellow brethren or worst yet persons who are not Christians. Christ specifically said that He wasn't only sent to the lost sheep of Israel, Matthew 15:24, so then, obviously we are to extend greater kindness to non-Christians.

It saddens me to see how poorly, even how I am dealt with by our fellow Christian brethren. Sometimes I cry. Sometimes I become depressed and wonder if something really is wrong with me, but then I snap out of my silly thoughts and remember that something is wrong with this world we in live in generally. It is dark, in need of light.

That is why I close my eyes and pray, asking the father to cleanse my heart from all unrighteousness. I pray that we will give not only me but other childlike characters, allowing us to love unconditionally those who even has done us wrong.

May whoever reads this feel inspired to love those as we love ourselves for if there is no love in us all will fail.

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Never venture out into a startup without doing your research thoroughly!

I have attempted many startups in my past life without really considering putting together a proper business plan.

Now for this business that I currently have I actually surprised myself by attempting a business plan until my friend who is an accountant suggested I pay him to complete it and so did I.

Initially when I finally decided to venture out into this business I didn't really know that so many things would have to be done in the back end before even renting the shop space. Now you are probably wondering what type of startup I am currently going through with. I can tell ya. It is a food business. Restaurant. More like a fast food takeout restaurant.

Honestly, I thought it was as simple as putting a menu and plan together, gathering capital and renting a shop. Little did I know that restaurants require a whole lot more planning and back end work. For e.g., The equipment if you are going to go industrial, which you should, is very pricey. A measly drinks cooler (fridge) can cost as much as $1200US or more, which is just ludicrous to me and we are just talking about a drinks cooler. We haven't even touched ovens, etc.

So I got over the fact that the equipment is pricey. Fine. Now when I started looking for a shop space, I thought, ok, I have capital. This will be easy. Easy where? I have been looking for weeks and still haven't finalized on a space because little did I know restaurant spaces have to be passed by the Ministry of Health in regards to if the premises has an adequate sewer system, etc.

I was even running from the fact that I'd have to pay a hefty some for rent and apparently it looks as though I won't be able to escape high rental fees, because accommodations for restaurant space is just costly.

I think that I am in for one hell of a ride. Let's pray that it turns out into one heaven of a ride. I haven't even reached to the renovation stage, training, prepping the menu and recipe list. Not to mention staffing. Aye, aye, aye. This is going to be the time of my life.

Thankfully I know I serve a risen Saviour and He's in the world today. He will guide my steps and place all the necessities in my path. I believe.

Everyone's in a financial debt crisis. Why?

As a child I never really understood why my father wasn't able to give me everything I wanted. Note that i said wanted.

I remember this one time when he took me on one of his side gigs as he would usually do to collect his pay and he collected a might sum of $100,000.00. I was so excited to know that my dad had collected that amount of money, but of course living in a third world country like Guyana; $100,000.00 was surely not alot of money.

Still. I was just too young to think about third world economies ad how weak the dollar was. I just wanted $7,000. Only that amount to buy this really awesome Fila. Hahaha. Fila. Can you imagine.

All day I pressured my dad into buying that Fila for me and he just kept saying no. I never ever understood it until I got older. $100,000 was just not a lot of cash. Not enough to take $7,000 from it to buy a silly Fila at least for a child.

Today as an adult, with adult friends and adult life it disturbs me to see how financially oppressed many persons are. Credit card bills sky rocket or maxed out, loans acquired from everything living leaning institution they is, hire purchase items and the list goes on.

I am sure it is very difficult to sleep comfortably with all that worry about where you're going to find cash to make those payments.

Very recently I started accessing the difference between needs and wants. They both mean acquiring something, but they mean totally different things. These too wants have defined the world we live in today. A world where lavish lifestyles and things we just want have caused many persons to be indebted unnecessarily.

Even more so, let us say you haven't taken a loan or you haven't got a credit card, but you're broke. Left wanting. Maybe you are unemployed. Maybe you couldn't find the first dollar to buy something you need even if it slapped you in the face. lol. It's sad you know. When you are broke, maybe hungry even and you step out to see persons flashing things across your face as if it means nothing to them. So much wealth in the world and you have absolutely no access to it. Sucks. Doesn't it?

So what's the secret? The plan, cause, whatever it is that allows those to have it to have it?

Interestingly enough I watched a video that the PewDiePie made. You see. PewDiePie is a popular YouTuber who apparently earned 7 Million Dollars in 2014 from his YouTube video uploads. Now if you noticed, I didn't say 'just by uploading YouTube videos'. One thing I know about YouTubbing is that is isn't exactly easy work and it consumes much time to shoot, edit and upload videos. Not to mention making time to do other things that are connected to your YouTube channel.

I laughed many times throughout his video as he thought it necessary to speak about why people are so mad for that fact that he made so much money.

I then realized all the more how ridiculously envious people are and not to mention, unreasonable and selfish. This guy who was broke started making videos because he loved doing it and joined a platform that is just as free to be used by everyone else just as how it is free to be used by him. Now, fortunately for him and as it is happening for many others, his views exploded and as YouTube pays for views, he gets paid for his views. Anyone can do it. So I am still trying to understand why exactly as people mad at him.

Finance and financial freedom is accessible by any living creature. So what I am missing here? What are you missing to cause yourself to be broke or up to your spine in debt?

Sometimes we just have to find the answers on our own.

PewDiePie's video....

I can't believe that I am considering wearing makeup again!

So I decided to not wear makeup again.

I have been going so good for years without this type of cosmetic and now I am being lured right back into that realm. I feel like screaming to the top of my lungs for disappointment in myself.

Any who. I stopped wearing makeup because of how superficial it can make a person seem, it is too time consuming, and for the life of me I can't even touch me likkle face if me I wear it. Ughhhhh!

Anyway. I am considering getting back into the game because of how childlike my features are.

I am not ungrateful and want to look like an old cow, but I want to look like the woman I am within.

Life!!!

Here are a few photos below of me in makeup.

Love,

Johanna

My first blog post

Hello everyone,

My name is Johanna and this blog was made to share activities in my daily life.

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Love,

Johanna

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